Loyalty is rare

I'm noticing a pattern..
In this day and age..it seems to be no surprise that..that in no matter how many relationships..there always is one that might have broken a soul or a trust for anybody else..I personally know at least a handful of my friends who have cheated or been cheated on.

LOYALTY is RARE! 

It's hard to find a person in this world..whom you know wont cheat on you. I know I'm not the most innocent but I know my loyalty and if I know I betrayed it in anyway..I'll leave and punish myself..

But believe me when I say I'm a loyal person. It takes a strong person to be loyal and not..lets just say..let an ex..or numerous guys fuck me! I'm a one guy kind of girl..even if I'm just seeing/hanging out/dating/BF&GF you..I'll stay true and wont be with anybody else..and that's honestly my choice..I like you for a reason. LOL THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NO REASON TO CHEAT! 

I remember at one time an ex and his gf at the time was accusing me of wanting to cheat with him while my bf was deployed..a bunch a bull fuckery if you ask me..all I wanted was to be friends at the time..and my bf knew what was going on..and unlike most girls when their other half is deployed..I stayed true and stuck it through..like I said I know my loyalty and I'm not trying to sound like I'm boosting because like I said I, too am not a perfect person. 

SORRY..I just wanted to vent..I feel like these people are damaging great people..who are now too afraid to let someone love them because of a betrayal that happened to them..

LOL Yea..and this song..is hella catchy! LOL

post it notes..from my heart

I did something I don't ever do..I left a post it note hidden amongst the pages of a notebook..
With how confusing you are..
How you're grouchy and then sweet the next..
A post it confession..

I'm taking a chance...will you with me?

Right by my side

A song that's been stuck in my head for a bit..LOL

 It all comes down to this
I miss your morning kiss
I won’t lie, I’m feeling it
You don’t know, I’m missing it
I’m so dumb, I must admit
It’s too much to hold it in
I can’t say no more than this
I just hope your heart hear me now
Gotta let you know how I’m feeling
You own my heart, he just renting (P.S. no one is renting! LOL)
Don’t turn away, pay attention
I’m pouring out my heart oh, boy

Slightly off..and to be honest

Feeling: Slightly off



Lately I've been feeling slightly odd..a little more negative than normal..being a tad bit more sensitive..and quite honestly more vulnerable..


Its been one interesting weekend..and I've been so distracted with the chaos around me..I've forgotten how to look within myself to re-find my center..

I need to be alone..
I need time to myself..
and not worry about other people...

I do miss someone at the moment..

I do think about him quite often..I wonder if he thinks of me when he has the chance..A part of me wishes there wasn't this much distance..but I'm honestly somewhat used to it..if I did it before..I can definitely do it again..but it makes me wonder..What brought on this distance? 

Plus he doesnt need to worry about me hurting him..I'm not that kind of girl who plays games with your heart..

If I choose to like you..I chose you for a reason.

And right now I wish I was at the beach..but the weather sucks! 

 

Come in

Yeah, so many guys have been trying to impress you 
But they can't love you girl like I do 
So if you want me you've got me girl as long as this is love
And from then on girl I would never leave you 
Travel across the world yeah baby just to see you 
No matter where girl 
It don't matter where 

Loving this song for awhile..but its been stuck in my head..

Thinking about a certain someone..hehehe 

The chase

Sometimes one wants the chase..To chase something elusive like a sunset..Never to possibly obtained..

I personally love this picture for many reasons..I was very fortunate to capture it and have it come out the way it did..I wish I could have a beach day like this again..It was such a fun adventure.

Good morning

Feeling: TBH

I wish I could stay in the bed..all day..but sadly I cant..I had an awesome sleep..the night before I only had about 3-4 hours of sleep..So when I got home I crashed out once I laid down in my bed..but I did wake up at 3 in the morning..unsure why but its been a weird habit for me lately..

"If I could I would dream forever..if thats the only way for me to see you..Let me dream forever."

Don't let the darkness consume me..

Feeling: somewhat deep..

As of late I've been feeling very negative..kind of like a slow chaotic storm..all in my mind...some people would pay to see me like this..but whatevs..I dont quite care right now..

Normally it takes quite a bit for me to get to this state..and I'm not saying I have every right to act as such..I try to keep these things to a min..but there's some things you can't escape..

I just have to remember..

 That everything happens for a reason.

Beach day with my best Sarah

Feeling: Refreshed 

Honestly with all the chaos going on. It was nice to have a get together with my good best friend Sarah. Its been awhile since we were able to hang out..let alone go to the beach together. 

The last time we went to the beach together was probably last year! We wanted to stick close by since we went later in the day. So Koolina it was! Plus today was a nice day! 

 Its honestly been years since I've been to Koolina..and I kind of remember why..I was slightly thrown off by how there was little to no waves and the water was really cold and super shallow. I normally just walk into the water and dive right in..but here if I did that I would've totally ate some sand! But beach is the beach and I had my best to talk to..it was still a great time!

Sarah and I decided to try this pizza place in the area! It was really yummy..granted one can't quite mess up cheese pizza..( and I've honestly come across some junk cheese pizza believe it or not!) This place was good! I wish we got the garlic knots too but yea..LOL

 We actually ate the whole pizza..now granted I ate my 4 big pieces..no problem! But Sarah said to me..She actually was struggling her 3rd and 4th piece..and even after I had enough room to eat an ice cream cone! Now to make matters worse..She's pregnant..5 months along! She said to me " Girl, you just out ate a pregnant lady. I'm impressed!" LOL even after we hung out couple hours after the pizza..I was still hungry. She was like " Girl, I'm still full! How the hell??" LOL 

 
 What can I say? My mom always told me I've loved pizza since I was in the womb. If the pizza is good..best believe I'm gonna eat it all! LOL Believe it or not I used be able to eat a whole medium sized pizza when I was a teenager!

Today was a great day! It was much needed! I hope this week is better than the last..but always remember smile even when things are falling apart! 

Everything happens for a reason! 

Great beach day!

Feeling: Slightly crisp but it was worth it!

Well yesterday was a good day! Isaac and I went to the beach..which is always the best place to go. So we make our way down to the North Shore! 

I know this road too well.

 LOL..I'm sure if you know me well enough you know where we went! But the plan was to go to a different beach but because it looked so nice. We decided for Waimea..My fave beach

The water was very nice and the reason I got so crisp was because I was so happy that the sun was out for once!

 I was being a bad subject and kept moving around and was taking random candid pictures of him. LOL

 I even took a pic of this random beached man..passed out in the sand. LOL and Isaac taking up most of my towel!

 

We then headed to Haleiwa to eat at Cholo's. There's no pics due to the fact that we were at Waimea roasting for almost 5 hrs..and He and I was hella hungry! LOL 

But we did make our way to Lanikai juice..Which is always one of the spots I like to stop by when I'm in Haleiwa. I got my Strawberry Shaka..and Isaac got a Traditional Acai Bowl??? I dunno..He said
Traditional thing/ Baby food! LOL

After that our adventure continued with going to a different beach..my friend showed me this beach and I wanted to take him there. Granted he grumbled most of the time due to the walking. LOL

 But it was worth it. Sadly the waves were kinda rough..so there wasnt much turtles this time around.

 I was being a trouble maker again..LOL

 The scenery was great! We also hanged a bit longer to see part of the sunset..I say part cause we didnt want to walk back in the dark. LOL

 Teaching me the ways of lighting and why it doesnt show how red it was at that moment..

 By the way these pictures were taken with my Samsung note 3! It has one awesome camera. Plus no filter. 

I really loved this beach too! It was nice and quiet and such beautiful scenery..

I really loved that I had all day to go on adventures..Ive been kinda missing those type of days. Quite reminiscent of last summer..where I went on an adventure almost every single day.  

Thanks for coming with me, Isaac! I can't wait to go on an adventure again!

Bed peace- Jhene Aiko

I've been really loving this song lately..I wish I could stay in bed all day!

Granted she's talking about weed allot but this song has a good vibe to it..LOL 

Curled up with my head on your chest
It's the best remedy for the pain and the stress
If the world doesn't change then we'll never get dressed
It will be like this to the kiss of the death
Of my soul 

judge or be judged?

To be honest..

It's an everyday occurrence of judgement between friends, family, and strangers alike. Is it because it's second nature? Or because it could also be a defensive front? Judgement is thrown every where when it shouldnt be..kindness and understanding should! I may not be a perfect person but I do try to keep it a minimum.

I always think who am I to judge? Do I know their walk of life? Do I know their story and how they got here? 

But whose to say everyone is gonna think the same? I know there are people out there who are judging me right now as I write this. But do they know me? Will they give a chance to get to know me? The answer is most likely no. They judge me by how I look..how I dress..my past..and possibly my actions yet they dont know who I am. It's like I'm painted as this home wreaking villain when I'm not. All they know is the outward appearance and a "He said, She said" deal. Some people will go along the lines of just hating me because of the past. When we both know the past is well the past..unless of course you keep on living in the past. 

I am a human. Sometimes it bothers me..sometimes it doesnt. But I'm gonna put this out there..a chance if you will..if you want to get to know me..contact me..let me prove myself to you..if not..then you can continue judging me and playing ignorant it is all by your choice. I am a woman of my word.

True love..

Although It's not only true love to me..its actually real love!
"Real love is putting someone else before yourself."

Because his music really speaks to me..

I wish I was at this concert..To see this man have so much passion in his music is very moving. 

His music help me through the hard times..it helped me see the positive. It always puts a smile on my face.

I've gotta push on through..Everything's gonna be alright.