deuces

A third time must be the charm for me..but at the same time I must be slightly stupid..or is this the forth time?

Thank goodness I knew your intentions and knew you'd do the same thing yet again to me..

Yet here I am hoping you'd change for the better..but you won't..because you seem too weak for it..

Thank goodness I didn't drop the guy I liked for someone who was "madly in love with me"..I believe you were confused and yet you go back to the same toxic person..believing it'll change..but it won't..like a moth to a flame..you'll get burned in the end..

I keep to my word..especially when I said if you go back..I won't be your friend again.

So here's good-bye..the final time..

deuces! 

Don't let the darkness consume me..

Feeling: somewhat deep..

As of late I've been feeling very negative..kind of like a slow chaotic storm..all in my mind...some people would pay to see me like this..but whatevs..I dont quite care right now..

Normally it takes quite a bit for me to get to this state..and I'm not saying I have every right to act as such..I try to keep these things to a min..but there's some things you can't escape..

I just have to remember..

 That everything happens for a reason.

stuck in the mud

The girl exclaiming to her close friend "Why is it taking me so long to move on from this friendship? I feel like I'm stuck in the mud..and he somehow got out and walked off..leaving me behind." Her friend sighed and said "It takes time..The only reason he got out was because he had her..his stick to help him out..if you had ** here..he would help you out of the mud." "But I dont want to rely on a stick or anyone to help me out of the mud. I should try to get out myself." the girl said strongly. Her friend laughed and said "Then it goes back to..it takes time. You cant just turn off your feelings. You care too much! You're too good to people who just treat you badly!" The girl sighed..she knew her friend was right. " I know I do. I'd rather give happiness cause thats how I want to fulfill my life. To be there for someone when no one else is. Now, isnt that a true friend?"

"Yes..But you know there's a small path in that mud..to get you out..its gonna take time..its gonna be hard..but I'm here to help you."