hey hey!

It's been awhile..

I've been busy with work..and just hanging out with my friends..

Amongst other  things..

 These two was taken back in July..I did a photoshoot with one of my good friends on IG ( asian_impressions) I've been following him since I started IG same for him as well..he's such an artist. The Pics came out so pretty. I'll have to put it up some time later..LOL

 Snapchat shenanigans! LOL

 Then it was exploring the north shore with a good friend of mine..

 Also went hiking Waianae side..they came out funny looking cause of the camera setting on my phone.LOL

 Isn't the view beautiful?

 Also got some visits from an old friend and of course..my chub chubs!

Sorry I havent been on for so long..I'm still hit by the passing of my grammy but as you can see..I'm taking it day by day!

song of the day..or well..awhile LOL

This is song has been stuck in my head for a long time..but I love it..

Nothing more than strangers passing by, out on the street
Memories are fading though it's only been a week
All the little things are gone, the things we used to be
Nobody could take us down, there was only you and me

The Perfect package????

feeling: Slightly confused

Well..for awhile now..more like for a year now..people have been asking about my love life and when I'm gonna find a BF, Get married, have kids..etc. etc. 

And when I tell them..well..I do like someone and we've been hanging out..its like go ahead and say" WHAT? HE DON'T WANT YOU TO BE HIS GF?? IS HE BLIND??" I just shrug and mumble "ohhh..i dunno...."

Not to mention..a good amount of family, friends alike like to say to me..I'm gonna put it in a list..LOL That:

-You're so beautiful/pretty why can't you find a BF? 

(Cause I'm not looking! gunfunit!)

-You're so mellow and not a jealous girl

(shrug)

-You're fun and you can hang out with the guys..you're like a tomboy but you still look like a girl

(shrug..beats me! LOL)

-You have such a great body!

(Thanks! Pizza diet! LOL)

The list can go on..but this girl can't remember all that was said to me..but these are the most..and the whole pretty part..does boost my ego a bit..but makes me question it too! LOL But I tell them..that they just saying that because they're my friends and family..but they apparently speak the truth not trying to make me feel better! LOL

But with that being said I do like someone..and lately I feel like Chuck from Good luck Chuck. Every guy I get involved with..they end up finding the girl they wanna settle down with..after me..LOL 

LOL..but I'll carry on..everything happens for a reason..and here's me with no make up being silly..

Oh yea, girl! thats how you get them! LOL

 

Loyalty is rare

I'm noticing a pattern..
In this day and age..it seems to be no surprise that..that in no matter how many relationships..there always is one that might have broken a soul or a trust for anybody else..I personally know at least a handful of my friends who have cheated or been cheated on.

LOYALTY is RARE! 

It's hard to find a person in this world..whom you know wont cheat on you. I know I'm not the most innocent but I know my loyalty and if I know I betrayed it in anyway..I'll leave and punish myself..

But believe me when I say I'm a loyal person. It takes a strong person to be loyal and not..lets just say..let an ex..or numerous guys fuck me! I'm a one guy kind of girl..even if I'm just seeing/hanging out/dating/BF&GF you..I'll stay true and wont be with anybody else..and that's honestly my choice..I like you for a reason. LOL THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NO REASON TO CHEAT! 

I remember at one time an ex and his gf at the time was accusing me of wanting to cheat with him while my bf was deployed..a bunch a bull fuckery if you ask me..all I wanted was to be friends at the time..and my bf knew what was going on..and unlike most girls when their other half is deployed..I stayed true and stuck it through..like I said I know my loyalty and I'm not trying to sound like I'm boosting because like I said I, too am not a perfect person. 

SORRY..I just wanted to vent..I feel like these people are damaging great people..who are now too afraid to let someone love them because of a betrayal that happened to them..

LOL Yea..and this song..is hella catchy! LOL

post it notes..from my heart

I did something I don't ever do..I left a post it note hidden amongst the pages of a notebook..
With how confusing you are..
How you're grouchy and then sweet the next..
A post it confession..

I'm taking a chance...will you with me?

Not a bad thing...

Today was one eventful day..

It first started out as a normal day..Me hiding that I've been feeling cynical for the past 3 weeks..questioning about life and love..why we have feelings for someone and have the possibility of getting hurt or loved..How many times do we get hurt till we find someone to heal our wounds..

My co-worker and I were talking..she then remembered and said to me " Oh my God. Shana. There's a song that reminded me of you." I asked her what the song was called and then downloaded it right away..figured I'd listen to it later..

After listening and watching the video..It gave me hope..being cynical or jaded is because I started not to believe in love anymore especially in this world we live in..because we all get hurt all in this search for love..but we all deserve love..it's the chance we take in this life..

I may not have a BF and people may have broken my heart many times but if you keep on living and loving..Love will find you..

You just have to have faith..

Because LOVE is LIFE..

And Everything happens for a reason! 

I know people make promises all the time
Then they turn right around and break them
When someone

cuts your heart open with a knife, and you're bleeding
But I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
'Cause baby you’re worth it

 

 No I won’t fill your mind
With broken promises and wasted time
And if you fall, you’ll always land right in these arms
These arms of mine

I always say...

Everything happens for a reason..good or bad..

Life is like the ocean..unpredictable..at one moment the ocean is calm..then the next..waves bigger than ever can appear..

All you have to learn is to keep on swimming..in the calm or the waves..

Right by my side

A song that's been stuck in my head for a bit..LOL

 It all comes down to this
I miss your morning kiss
I won’t lie, I’m feeling it
You don’t know, I’m missing it
I’m so dumb, I must admit
It’s too much to hold it in
I can’t say no more than this
I just hope your heart hear me now
Gotta let you know how I’m feeling
You own my heart, he just renting (P.S. no one is renting! LOL)
Don’t turn away, pay attention
I’m pouring out my heart oh, boy

Slightly off..and to be honest

Feeling: Slightly off



Lately I've been feeling slightly odd..a little more negative than normal..being a tad bit more sensitive..and quite honestly more vulnerable..


Its been one interesting weekend..and I've been so distracted with the chaos around me..I've forgotten how to look within myself to re-find my center..

I need to be alone..
I need time to myself..
and not worry about other people...

I do miss someone at the moment..

I do think about him quite often..I wonder if he thinks of me when he has the chance..A part of me wishes there wasn't this much distance..but I'm honestly somewhat used to it..if I did it before..I can definitely do it again..but it makes me wonder..What brought on this distance? 

Plus he doesnt need to worry about me hurting him..I'm not that kind of girl who plays games with your heart..

If I choose to like you..I chose you for a reason.

And right now I wish I was at the beach..but the weather sucks! 

 

Come in

Yeah, so many guys have been trying to impress you 
But they can't love you girl like I do 
So if you want me you've got me girl as long as this is love
And from then on girl I would never leave you 
Travel across the world yeah baby just to see you 
No matter where girl 
It don't matter where 

Loving this song for awhile..but its been stuck in my head..

Thinking about a certain someone..hehehe 

Beach day

Feeling: Still Sleepy

Normally Sundays and Mondays are always deemed with such sadness because its the beginning of the work week..but for me..Its kind of like my weekend..I start work Tuesday-Saturday..and sometimes I work on Sundays too because of my other job..but I lucked out this weekend. 

I normally almost always have Mondays off but Mr. Isaac always seems to be working on those days but we lucked out and was able to go to the beach. 
With no surprise we ate pizza for late breakfast/ early lunch. LOL

Of course he's the only guy I know who loves pizza as much as I do! LOL enough to want it first thing right when you wake up! LOL

 We amazingly decided to go to Waimea..My fave beach..plus it was nice and sunny! 

Oh Waimea..How I love you! LOL It was great cause there weren't many people. It was partially cloudy so it meant it wasn't too cold or too hot. 
Of course it goes without saying that I start badgering Isaac with me taking random pics of him! LOL

Its also because he was passed out most of the time and only came into the water with me once! So he's dubbed Mr. Panda..LOL

Plus he also took over the towel again and somehow got sand all over the place...

Of course a trip to the North Shore isn't complete without Lanikai Juice..

 I was too excited about my drink I didnt take a pic of it..but I did take a pic of Isaac's Acai bowl..then took a pic of him cause he grumbled of how I stole his pic..LOL So Isaac and his Acai bowl! LOL 
To top it off we got to see the Lunar eclipse..which was awesome..
It was a great day..I hope I get another beach day soon..You can never have too many of those! LOL
 

If you just realize..what I just realized..LOL

Song ATM

This song is pretty old..but I love Colbie Caillat's voice..& this song is sweet..

If you just realize what I just realized...

The chase

Sometimes one wants the chase..To chase something elusive like a sunset..Never to possibly obtained..

I personally love this picture for many reasons..I was very fortunate to capture it and have it come out the way it did..I wish I could have a beach day like this again..It was such a fun adventure.

The little things..

The little things are what keeping me afloat..
I honestly feel like drowning in this chaos..
To break down at any given second..
But remembering the little things..happy things that are keeping me afloat..

I need the beach, the ocean more than anything right now..

A hug from a certain someone would be awesome too..but I'm wondering..at what price?

Don't let the darkness consume me..

Feeling: somewhat deep..

As of late I've been feeling very negative..kind of like a slow chaotic storm..all in my mind...some people would pay to see me like this..but whatevs..I dont quite care right now..

Normally it takes quite a bit for me to get to this state..and I'm not saying I have every right to act as such..I try to keep these things to a min..but there's some things you can't escape..

I just have to remember..

 That everything happens for a reason.

The song ATM

Lots of Krewella lately..but when I first heard this song through a friend..it really stuck with me..cause we are only human. We can only handle so much. Some people can handle a little where as others can handle allot. 

I'm going through some things at the moment...family and what not. People dying..people ignoring..people not being there..and how scary it can be to tell someone how you feel and see whats gonna happen next..
But one has to remember that everything happens for a reason..
people are dying everyday..but God will release them from their pain..
people ignoring..they may be going through their own thing..and if they dont care about you..well..time to move on!
people not being there..same thing..people may have their own problems..but if they are doing it on purpose..then they arent your real friends..
The scariness of telling someone how you feel and what the outcome may be..at least you were honest with how you felt..instead of hiding it..everything happens for a reason..if it happens, it happens..if not..then thats ok..at least you laid the cards on the table.

 
 I am only human.
 

Enjoy the ride~

This song has been on repeat for weeks. LOL Listening to the lyrics..this is how I want to think everyday! 

If nothing comes easy as long as we're breathing
We'll go all the way or go home

'Cause if it's fast or slow
All I really know is I'm gonna enjoy the ride
And if it's hard or soft before we get off
I'm gonna enjoy the ride, enjoy the ride

Cause you should enjoy the ride..called life!



I want to think I cant believe I did or say that instead of I wish I did or say that! Live your life with no regrets!

Great beach day!

Feeling: Slightly crisp but it was worth it!

Well yesterday was a good day! Isaac and I went to the beach..which is always the best place to go. So we make our way down to the North Shore! 

I know this road too well.

 LOL..I'm sure if you know me well enough you know where we went! But the plan was to go to a different beach but because it looked so nice. We decided for Waimea..My fave beach

The water was very nice and the reason I got so crisp was because I was so happy that the sun was out for once!

 I was being a bad subject and kept moving around and was taking random candid pictures of him. LOL

 I even took a pic of this random beached man..passed out in the sand. LOL and Isaac taking up most of my towel!

 

We then headed to Haleiwa to eat at Cholo's. There's no pics due to the fact that we were at Waimea roasting for almost 5 hrs..and He and I was hella hungry! LOL 

But we did make our way to Lanikai juice..Which is always one of the spots I like to stop by when I'm in Haleiwa. I got my Strawberry Shaka..and Isaac got a Traditional Acai Bowl??? I dunno..He said
Traditional thing/ Baby food! LOL

After that our adventure continued with going to a different beach..my friend showed me this beach and I wanted to take him there. Granted he grumbled most of the time due to the walking. LOL

 But it was worth it. Sadly the waves were kinda rough..so there wasnt much turtles this time around.

 I was being a trouble maker again..LOL

 The scenery was great! We also hanged a bit longer to see part of the sunset..I say part cause we didnt want to walk back in the dark. LOL

 Teaching me the ways of lighting and why it doesnt show how red it was at that moment..

 By the way these pictures were taken with my Samsung note 3! It has one awesome camera. Plus no filter. 

I really loved this beach too! It was nice and quiet and such beautiful scenery..

I really loved that I had all day to go on adventures..Ive been kinda missing those type of days. Quite reminiscent of last summer..where I went on an adventure almost every single day.  

Thanks for coming with me, Isaac! I can't wait to go on an adventure again!