300~

Well last night Isaac and I went to watch 300: Rise of an Empire..and I honestly had mixed feelings about watching it. I absolutely loved the first one and this one wasn't bad! 

I actually loved a certain character even though she was bad..and she's Artemisia! 

I honestly imagined a pirate queen to be like her..A woman leading in a man's world. Strong, sexy, and vicious. Not to mention I would definitely wear those outfits she wore in the movie! LOL 

She was also quite humorous as well. One of my fave lines is "You fight harder than you fuck." And of course that is to Themistocles. 

 Now this scene of the movie was quite raw and I loved how they were aggressive..Shrug. What can I say? LOL 

She was one badass character. 

After the movies Isaac and I went to DnBs to play games for a bit. I wanted to challenge him to a game. Considering shooting games are one of my faves..I decided for us to play the scary one. Now let me just say yea..we both got scared but talk about making ass of myself! I've played this game couple times before and my heart rate and my score was good..but when I played him, man..my heart rate was all over the place..the score was junk! LOL >_____< sooo sad! 

He then wanted me to play this block game which I suck at..not to mention he was watching closely at me the whole time..I only made 4 blocks! but him..LOL

 He almost made to 6/7! LOL GOSH! Then we went to play a trivia game and again he wins! My goodness..so to make myself feel better i bought this..LOL

He's so fluffy! I'm gonna die! LOL LOL

It was a good night! There seems to be allot of good movies coming out..I'm waiting for Divergent and Noah..and theres another but yea! 

Until then~

The return to the ocean..The pirate queen of the north.

Feeling: In the right place..

Today was an awesome day. It was a much needed day of an adventure. The funny thing is it was a last minute adventure. My friend Cencia wanted to go to the beach early in the morning..and she told me this at 9:30 pm ir maybe it was 10. LOL either way..we both went to sleep late but made an early journey to the north..and when I say early it was 7 am in the morning when she came to get me. 

Our first place (other than 711) was The Birthing stones..

 

It was a very peaceful place..although the next pics you're gonna see are quite questionable. LOL 

 If you look at all these pics..there's a greenish orb in it. Now at first I thought it was part of my lens from my camera but with the first pic you actually see part of the lens glare but the orb is in it. Also the orb moves.

Now this has given some friends and my family some "chicken-skin" Look at my hand in the first 2 pics ..if you look at the largest and last pic there's something hiding my hand. At first I honestly thought It was the glare but it isnt..but thats up to you to figure out what that could possibly be touching my hand!

We then preceded to 3 tables..North shore

Ohh..the sea how I missed you so!

 My friend Cencia leading the way.

The view

The pirate queen has returned to her domain

Then off we went to a beach in Kahuku..

  

We then drove back toward Mililani and she bought some coconuts! FYI That's one of my fave drinks..fresh, ice cold coconut water! Its the best and its good for you!

 We then took the scenic route back home..

  and of course we took pics here was well! LOL

 

Today like I said was a much needed day. The ocean is really calming to me and lets just say I've been needing it but I kept on putting it off. Just to smell the salty air..hear the waves..feel the sand and sea on my skin it brought me back. 

Talking with my friend she was saying..We are water babies..almost everyone who was born here is one.

We are tied to the ocean. Granted one can think that I can go to any beach and feel the same. It's similar but not the same. For example, I took my former friend to Waikiki beach at night. It was fun and somewhat calming. Had the smell of salt, sand and the ocean. Town has nice beaches but my heart, my soul belongs in the North shore. I was raised on the beaches of North shore. It has a different feel for me. 

So with that being said..I'm feeling renewed. 

Clarity. Peaceful and Happy! LOL

-Hard, sharp rocks poke at her feet as she climbs toward the ledge. She smells the salty air and closes her eyes and murmurs " I am home." Hands grasp the wet, cold rock pulling herself up and up to the ledge. She gazes out onto the horizon. A blanket of shades of blue and caps of white. The sounds of waves crashing into the rocks. This is my home. This is my soul. This is my domain. She thought as a smirk shows on her face. She climbs down with grace and walks onto the sand..walking toward the ocean..letting the water raise up to her legs. Touching the water with her finger tips. The sea is calling to her soul. Calming it with each wave that touches her. She grasps a locket she has around her neck. Like a reminder of the hurt and sadness. The reason..this person who gave her the locket. Its the mark of her people. She then lets go..opens her arms to feel the breeze and remembers..She was and still is a strong woman..for she is the Queen of the North. The Pirate Queen of the North-  

something found and something lost..

feeling: Meh

I've lost a friend today but what can you do. I'm glad he's figured out what he wants..but within the same token..I'm afraid what the outcome may be. But one must not dwell in the choices people make for themselves. Its their life not your's.

At the same time..he wanted to be lost. Which led me having a good heart to heart with Chucky. I woke him by calling him. I was honestly a tad bit upset..and the all knowing Chucky simply said "You knew this was going to happen? Why werent you prepared?" I told him I simply had no time.

"Are you gonna continue letting this person do this to you? Cut you off then bring you back again? You're too nice. Once a person cuts a cord..its done. They've let you fall. You cant just fall and be brought back up!" 

Chucky always knows how to make things stick with me. I later told him. When he has a girlfriend and she makes him chose..He'll have to chose her. 

Chucky:...ha!
Shana: You aren't gonna are you?
Chucky: Nope! Cause if she truly cared and loved me..She wouldnt make me chose! 
Shana:I'd chose you too! 

Although Chucky and I are exes..I'm starting to see that..not everybody is like us..every relationship is different. But even though we may not be together..we simply want the best for each other..support each other..and if my future BF cant handle that Chucky and I are friends..STRICTLY friends! Cause Chucky is apart of me..and still is my best friend. Then I'll find..(hopefully) someone who will accept that! 

I'm totally going off of tangent but I have allot to thank for him. He's opened my eyes to so many things. He never judges me and hasn't let me down. 
Although there was one time he judged me.

"If the wildebeest goes and explores and plays with the lions. Be prepared to get bit in the ass!" 

So back to my friend. I'm sad and accepting. 7-8 years gone..but I'm sure it'll be worth it. I'm sorry I cant be there this time around..but I honestly feel like its gonna be a constant cycle..which should break if you two..(I say two because everybody deserves to find someone just for them.) To find the right ones for you. 

It takes a strong person to let go. You know I know this personally. Before Chucky and I relationship ended..we were together for almost 7 years. But to walk away and let go..you need support too. I was lucky to have Chucky..because he knew he couldnt give me the things I wanted he still supported me. He wanted me to find someone better. 

So best of luck to you, Pirate King of the south. 
Just remember Winter is Coming! So when you see those black flags on your horizon. This Pirate Queen of the north is taking over.