judge or be judged?

To be honest..

It's an everyday occurrence of judgement between friends, family, and strangers alike. Is it because it's second nature? Or because it could also be a defensive front? Judgement is thrown every where when it shouldnt be..kindness and understanding should! I may not be a perfect person but I do try to keep it a minimum.

I always think who am I to judge? Do I know their walk of life? Do I know their story and how they got here? 

But whose to say everyone is gonna think the same? I know there are people out there who are judging me right now as I write this. But do they know me? Will they give a chance to get to know me? The answer is most likely no. They judge me by how I look..how I dress..my past..and possibly my actions yet they dont know who I am. It's like I'm painted as this home wreaking villain when I'm not. All they know is the outward appearance and a "He said, She said" deal. Some people will go along the lines of just hating me because of the past. When we both know the past is well the past..unless of course you keep on living in the past. 

I am a human. Sometimes it bothers me..sometimes it doesnt. But I'm gonna put this out there..a chance if you will..if you want to get to know me..contact me..let me prove myself to you..if not..then you can continue judging me and playing ignorant it is all by your choice. I am a woman of my word.

To where it started..

The girl closes her eyes..and smiles..a memory of last year warms her. Of how spontaneous that night was..she wishes she could go back to where it started..but she honestly hasnt gone back to the place thinking it might taint the memory. 

It was dark but loud..with the crowds..music filled the air..booze filled bodies..dancing with the music..she faces him..he stares at her..she smiles and at an instant his lips are on her's..a kiss..

True love..

Although It's not only true love to me..its actually real love!
"Real love is putting someone else before yourself."

stuck in the mud

The girl exclaiming to her close friend "Why is it taking me so long to move on from this friendship? I feel like I'm stuck in the mud..and he somehow got out and walked off..leaving me behind." Her friend sighed and said "It takes time..The only reason he got out was because he had her..his stick to help him out..if you had ** here..he would help you out of the mud." "But I dont want to rely on a stick or anyone to help me out of the mud. I should try to get out myself." the girl said strongly. Her friend laughed and said "Then it goes back to..it takes time. You cant just turn off your feelings. You care too much! You're too good to people who just treat you badly!" The girl sighed..she knew her friend was right. " I know I do. I'd rather give happiness cause thats how I want to fulfill my life. To be there for someone when no one else is. Now, isnt that a true friend?"

"Yes..But you know there's a small path in that mud..to get you out..its gonna take time..its gonna be hard..but I'm here to help you."

The Vapors - Jhene Aiko

Walking through the smoke and mirrors, I'm burdened, you burning bridges Memories fading faded it help you not to remember


Its amazing how a person thinks that they can just delete the pictures, the things they shared with someone..but there's one thing you cant delete..your memories.

Because his music really speaks to me..

I wish I was at this concert..To see this man have so much passion in his music is very moving. 

His music help me through the hard times..it helped me see the positive. It always puts a smile on my face.

I've gotta push on through..Everything's gonna be alright.

The Other Side

Tonight we’ll just get drunk
Disturb the peace
Find your hands all over me
And then you bite your lip
Whisper and say, “We’re going all the way.”


This song reminds me of last summer. I wasnt working for 3 months. It was a nice extended vacation. I went to the beach almost every day. Hiked almost the same amount. Sometimes you need to get out of the grind to truly gain clarity. That time helped me grow.

It also had me go to the "other side". It was honestly one of the highlights of my summer. I miss it. I miss you.